No Exit: Life On Emerson Ave

Rocco Vision

2008-03-15T10:43:00.001-04:00

change

2008-03-12T10:02:00.001-04:00

Coming out of the closet

2008-03-07T10:17:00.001-05:00

lawrence king Gay Bashing

2008-03-04T20:41:00.002-05:00

Some of you may have heard that a fifteen year old boy named Lawerence King was murdered by another fifteen year old boy because he was gay. Brandon (the murderer) killed Lawerence after Lawerence asked him to be his valentine. Why is it still wrong to love another boy?It's hard and it hits home when I hear stuff like this especially when the victims are so young. It's like what Ellen said, "What messages are we sending our children to make a hate crime acceptable?" There is NO excuse...no one has the right to end another life!For a moment, let's take out the fact that it was a boy crushing on another boy. Go back to high school, to YOUR 15 yr old self and remember the thoughts you had. Can you? Here's are few of mine:
1) I just want to fit in
2) I hope I get a passing grade in math class
3) I wonder if I'll have enough money for those jeans.
4) Will my skin ever clear up?
Now add sexuality to the pot:
1)God he's cute
2) Why do I feel like this?
3) Will I ever be loved back?

Never in my dreams would I have even thought to ask my boy crush out on a date or even tell him how I felt about him. But a 15 yr old did and because of this wonderful act he'd dead. The only thing I see wrong with this picture is that Lawerence will never go out on his first date, or graduate from high school, or even be loved back.Today and each day that follows I ask everyone who reads this to stop using the word fag, faggot, dike or any other degrading word to put someone else down. "That's gay" to describe something stupid is wrong! I'm asking everyone to think before using someone's sexuality as a weapon because you know what, someone is listening and someone is hurting.

It's ok to be Gay

Procastinator 4

2008-03-03T20:32:00.000-05:00

eye blink therefore i am

2008-02-28T19:16:00.002-05:00

It's funny, the best secrets are always told by a woman. how to please a man - she knows. which finger makes him moan - she knows. the look which melts the homo in his tracks - she knows - he's owned. gay comes close but loses it's luster after some time. i can pretend and fuel my imagination - but i'd only be verifying the retard within. I'm wrong because she says I am. words are war but it's the look she has that ends it all. a slice of life - i haven't even swung.
who are you - she asks - no one - i whisper
into silence i creep
in his arms - she weeps
what's wrong is right.

Official Video for Terra Naomi's "Say It's Possible"

2008-02-28T19:15:00.001-05:00

Madonna _ rescue me

2008-02-27T05:48:00.000-05:00

Chris Crocker - Gay HATE on Youtube!

2008-02-27T05:38:00.002-05:00

Chris Crocker has probably the biggest balls ever! I admire his talent! He's aggressive and you know what, it's much needed.

Procastinator: Harry Potter , poking strangers with my wand

2008-02-26T08:19:00.001-05:00

Procastinator: the importance of nothing

2008-02-17T23:40:00.002-05:00

So my project that I've been working on will see the light of day! In an attempt to enlighten the urge for a little attention No Exit is proud to present Procastinator: the importance of nothing. Not to sound cocky, it's brilliant. Check them out and let me know what you think.

Procastinator EP#2 : Rubik Gum

2008-02-17T09:26:00.001-05:00

It's 6:30am and I'm vblogging...thank you no smoking!

STOP SMOKING, YOU WILL DIE!

2008-02-10T21:44:00.001-05:00

OMG I feel like this ever since I quit smoking...thank god I work alone.

Procastinator: the importance of nothing

2008-02-10T12:05:00.001-05:00

Thats The Way I Like It

2008-02-10T12:04:00.001-05:00

Anti-Smoking, Anti-Nicotine, Anti-Cigarette Video PSA - 02

2008-02-10T12:03:00.001-05:00

Part 2: Rosie O'Donnell Cyndi Lauper Sam Harris Margaret Cho

2008-02-10T12:01:00.000-05:00

Graphic Australian Anti-Smoking Ad

2008-02-04T22:12:00.000-05:00

Quote of the Day

2008-02-03T08:45:00.000-05:00

Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans.
- John Lennon

Madonna talks gay

2008-02-03T06:36:00.001-05:00

Madonna Interview 94

2008-02-03T06:23:00.000-05:00

27 ans JinDanHu

2008-01-24T23:47:00.000-05:00

OFFICIAL body's a temple music video!!

2008-01-24T23:33:00.000-05:00

Jay Brannan need I say more?

Jeanne Bice's Anti-Jewish Comments LIVE on QVC

2008-01-23T21:30:00.001-05:00

Dance of the Sugar Plum Maggies!

2008-01-23T21:28:00.000-05:00

This is the craziest shit ever!

Smoking Gun

2008-01-23T21:18:00.000-05:00

It's day either 8 or 10 of my new smoke free life. What surprises me during this whole thing is that I haven't wanted to kill...that much.

The patch is working surprisingly well but I don't recommend doubling up...lethal.

There hasn't been much weight gain, thank god! I have spent money like I've never spent...it's like my pockets are on fire.

I'm just not in the mood for a smoke break. That's weird.

the beat goes on...and on...and on

2008-01-22T12:17:00.001-05:00

Say it isn't so...

The truth, the past I've seen

I've come undone

seconds before A moment too soon

2008-01-21T10:46:00.001-05:00

There's something about falling for the perfect guy. It's the second before clarity that I don't get. The games...the flirting...the first kiss. Silence in the morning ... it's a comfortable one. We moan like we've done it before but it was the first time...it was right.To protect my heart, the only thing I have left, would leave me alone. A flash of thought of the night before blinds me today.The phone rings and I jump...is it him?a friend...a good one says my name. The sound of her voice deafens me back to the dream...I've fallen for him.

Procastinate: purge the bullshit!

2008-01-18T11:12:00.000-05:00

So, I've been working on the next series of V-blogs. I quit smoking (for those of you who are on my facebook you can monitor how many cigarettes I haven't smoked and how much money I've saved) so instead of sitting around and thinking about smoking...I've been working on my videos.

ミニVLOG

2008-01-18T11:09:00.000-05:00

Quote of the day

2008-01-12T20:08:00.001-05:00

Character is what you have left when you've lost everything you can lose. - Evan Esar

Gay/Lesbian Wedding Ad In Canada

2008-01-12T09:23:00.000-05:00

LEAVE CROCS ALONE!

2008-01-12T09:15:00.000-05:00

It's William Sledd Bitches!

The Ben and Dave Show Episode 1: Clip 1

2008-01-12T08:49:00.000-05:00

New Cartoon Series for Kids Buddy G My Two Moms and Me

2008-01-12T08:17:00.003-05:00

Domestic Partnership New Mexico: Andrea & Dee

2008-01-12T08:14:00.000-05:00

Rosie O'Donnell vs. Elisabeth Hasselbeck Cat Fight!

2008-01-09T06:18:00.000-05:00

Ok - I've never seen this episode of the View before...all I have to say is Rosie knows how to make a boring show like the View good.

Queer as Folk: Brain's Theme Song

2008-01-09T05:56:00.001-05:00

bolero - pink martini

2008-01-08T19:33:00.001-05:00

Pink Martini: Amado Mio

2008-01-08T19:30:00.001-05:00

Goldfrapp - Ooh La La

2008-01-08T19:29:00.001-05:00

Wankin and caught

2008-01-08T19:14:00.000-05:00

Hot

2008-01-08T19:13:00.001-05:00

Facebook: Gay Adoption in Canada

2008-01-02T22:02:00.000-05:00

poker guy

2008-01-02T21:53:00.000-05:00

Liquid for an Anjuli (Part 13)

2008-01-02T21:49:00.000-05:00

Straight Up (Acoustic)

2008-01-02T21:46:00.001-05:00

An acoustic version of Paula Abdul's Straight Up.
(Chords: Capo 4 - Em, C, D, Em progression)

Balls

2008-01-02T21:41:00.000-05:00

Here are a few pictures I took over the holidays

I think I'm in Love

2007-12-31T23:28:00.001-05:00

Holy This is HOT

2007-12-31T23:26:00.000-05:00

Golden Girls, & Adoption

2007-12-22T20:32:00.000-05:00

Madonna in Malawi

2007-12-22T15:56:00.000-05:00

Celine Dion-Oh Holy night

2007-12-22T12:09:00.000-05:00

All I have to say: Holy Fucking Voice on this girl!

Twas the night before xmas

2007-12-22T11:05:00.001-05:00

Gay Adoption in Canada Facebook group

2007-12-20T21:59:00.000-05:00

I've started a new group on facebook called Gay Adoption in Canada. If you haven't joined the group please do so now. For those of you who are parents please feel free to voice your experiences with parenthood. Those who are interested in becoming a parent but don't know where to start please feel free to post your questions...the point of Gay Adoption in Canada is to educate, understand and fulfill a dream of becoming a parent:
Latest Article: Remembering the Mother
Part of the process of adoption is getting comfortable with what a child may have. Autism, FAS (Fetal Alcohol Sydrome), drug addiction -- are some of the things I've encountered. It's depressing and scary to say the least. In the beginning my reaction was probably what most people think: If you're that fucked up on drugs just have an abortion. The problem in thinking this is way stems down to this: We're dealing with a child having a child!
Most of the women who give their children up for adoption aren't women...they're teenagers. In most cases, their lives are so out of control that they can't see fact from fiction. In most cases, they take the drugs to forget the past, or the present or even the future. The real world can be an ugly place especially if there's another life to protect.
In part of understanding the process or at least gaining compassion for these women, I decided the volunteer my time with the Jessie's Centre for Teenagers, a place for teenage mothers to learn about parenthood. I haven't started yet but I hope there's an opportunity to gain compassion. I can't begin to imagine how scared these girls are or where they came from...all I know is that the mother of the child I adopt is linked to me.
Our future begins now.

David Beckham sexy ad for ARMANI EXCHANGE VIDEO

2007-12-19T22:09:00.001-05:00

Lance Bass: I Always Knew I Was Gay [Life 'Out of Sync']

2007-12-19T21:54:00.000-05:00

Wake Up Romeo!

2007-12-16T18:41:00.000-05:00

Big Wheel

2007-12-16T18:35:00.001-05:00

RELAX

2007-12-16T18:27:00.000-05:00

Day with a Model

2007-12-15T21:44:00.000-05:00

Dirty Dancing - Trailer 1987

2007-12-13T20:13:00.001-05:00

Dirty dancing - time of my life

2007-12-13T20:05:00.000-05:00

Come on...you know you love it!

Janet Jackson - Love Will Never Do

2007-12-13T20:03:00.000-05:00

Janet Jackson's New Song!!!

2007-12-13T20:01:00.000-05:00

It's fucking HOT

goldfrapp - strict machine

2007-12-13T19:55:00.000-05:00

Depeche Mode Route 66

2007-12-13T19:53:00.001-05:00

being boring - pet shop boys

2007-12-13T19:51:00.000-05:00

Madonna - Pepsi Commercial 1989

2007-12-13T19:49:00.001-05:00

Bite the Bad Guy

2007-12-10T19:57:00.000-05:00

It all started this morning, over a cup of coffee and burnt eggs. There was a spit of optimism in my step but in the back of my mind I wondered what, or who was around the corner. Despite this momentary seer of paranoia I continued getting ready for work; there was a nifty little jingle looping over in my head. It was odd, you know? Without reason or cause I was happy but I assure you it didn't last long.

The walk to the bus stop was unusually warm. Seriously, the snow was melting and the kids walked with open jackets. I walked with ease since the ice beneath my feet had melted into a puddle. What the fuck? It's December for Christ's sake?

Before I had reached the bus stop two loaded buses drove past sending slush in every direction. Fortunately, and really odd, none of it had landed on me. A smile, one tiny indication of what was happening inside me, peeled over my face. I was glad, and really surprised that none of the slush landed on me. It was like God placing his, or her, huge hand in front of me, to shield me from the wet mushy ice. So far it was a great fucking day!

Like a wet dream, reality had to pinch me in the ribs. In moments, I glanced at my watch and notices that I'd be late for work...how did that happen? I tried not to panic and focused my attention on the dishes at home. It always amazed me at how some don't make a mess at home while I, who doesn't do all the much aside from write, live harmoniously with dirt. It's like I attract dirty dishes...maybe it's the Italian in me or the fact that I live alone but it's like the dishes pile along with the dust.

So upon walking into work I was greeted with pastries and home baked goods...talk about a warm welcome! All I needed was a cup of non-office coffee and I'd be set. Sure enough before I had even taken off my jacket my little co-worker friend had walked into my office and asked to walk with him to Starbucks (ok fine, it was this organic coffee shop that charges wayyy to much for shitty coffee but since it's fare-trade people shut up and pay the extra dollar). You would think my co-worker was gay, his shoe laces match his sweater, his sweater match his t shirt and of course his t shirt matches his eyes but sadly my little homo he is not. But opinionated he is with a dash of sarcasm and a wink of charm...hence why I enjoy his company.

So I had my treats, my organic coffee (Fare Trade at that!) I was ready to work. Unfortunately both my computers weren't. To add salt to my sugar cookie shaped like Santa, a show that would be airing tonight couldn't be found. To punch me in the gut, I couldn't access my voicemail but my phone insisted that I had messages waiting. Outlook was out to lunch. My office door wouldn't close and I had broken my last cigarette. What happened to my joyous, celebratory, something to write home to mom about Monday go?

The day progressed with a grind. Co-workers expressed how dysfunctional their day was...at least I wasn't alone. Office drama sored like an STD in a bathhouse and I had to pee. Did I mention I started detoxing and drinking 3 litres of water a day? Did I also mention that every time I attempted to use the washroom there was an 'urgent' conversation or that a show needed work and I'd have to wait on the captioning. Or a closed captioning file that needed to be encoded disappeared? Or at one point I cramped and thought God who was once protecting me from slush was now laughing in my tortured face?

Mondays suck and not because I work in TV. It's like we're given two days to forget our roles in the corporate jungle and in doing so we forget how to walk. Like a drunk on the dancefloor, we're misguided by the beat of the drum and we end up looking like the spinster uncle that no one talks to but insists on dancing out of sync. What sucks is that by the time Friday rolls around we're back in the swing of things but itching to be done with it as we look forward to having 2 days to do what we want...to sleep in...go drinking with friends we shouldn't be friends with and to forget that on Monday the sun will flirt with us...the homemade baked goods will leave a smile on our face and the little homo-wanna-be will have a whitty yet sarcastic word and my damn fucking computer will do something new to freak me out. Being a grown up is anything but a welcoming Monday because there's no such thing as a welcoming Monday and a nifty jingle. Perhaps there is a nifty jingle but what are they selling?

Paternal Instinct - a film on gay parents through surrogacy

2007-12-07T19:42:00.001-05:00

Gay Parenting

2007-12-05T20:10:00.001-05:00

I could have spent the rest of my life chasing after things I missed out on but where would that have gotten me? Instead I have my eye set on the future and moving, with each day, towards it. My choice to adopt was one that took many years, one that made me look at my friends, my home and myself differently. To be a father, a good father, is to look at myself honestly and ask: How can I be better for my son? It is this question that took the most of those years to answer.

I want to be the father I never had. I want to know my kid. He will know he is home when he looks into my eyes and I will know I am alive when I am with him.

2008 marks the beginning of my new life. Not only will Life on Emerson Ave be available to all of you (www.lifeonemersonave.com) but it will also be the start of my journey towards parenthood. It's scary and uncertain, especially since I am doing it alone but I'm not concerned with any of that. It's not a want but a need that I become a father. Anyone can exist but I want to live.

2 Dads & 5 adopted children brave homophobia & racism.

2007-12-05T20:02:00.000-05:00

ACLU Freedom Files: Lesbian & Gay Parents | Arkansas

2007-12-05T19:42:00.000-05:00

ACLU Freedom Files: Lesbian & Gay Parents | Florida

2007-12-05T19:41:00.000-05:00

"The View" on Transgender Children

2007-12-05T19:20:00.000-05:00

Ballroom Blitz!

2007-12-05T08:30:00.001-05:00

The Little Mermaid Gets Nasty

2007-12-05T08:26:00.000-05:00

"You Don't Own Me"

2007-12-05T08:11:00.000-05:00

AWWW look...it's a baby tranny and her fag hag!

Nina Arsenault Erotica Burlesque

2007-12-02T18:14:00.001-05:00

Gay Adoption Ad

2007-12-02T17:54:00.000-05:00

Crush You

2007-11-30T10:19:00.001-05:00

It does seem strange that in my adult life I still develop crushes on those I could never have. And yet, deep down my insides curve and flex to stimulate a feeling of ...satisfaction. Do not sleep, I tell my heart, stay awake and taste the morning sun. Yes tragic and mello, subtle and delicious but truth be told...morning woodies are sensational!

When Drag Queens Attack!

2007-11-30T07:13:00.000-05:00

I've said this before and I'll say it again...don't mess with a drag queen!

It's official: People are Fucking Nuts!

2007-11-30T06:57:00.000-05:00

Tap on the head and some werido can make you str8?

According to Pat Robertson, God is using superhighway I-35 that runs from Canada to Mexico through the midwest to purify America from sin. He says "I-35 is the highway spoken of in Isaiah 35:8 - "And a highway will be there; it will be called the way of holiness."

Are people this fucking bored?

This is why I love Jay Brannan!!!!

2007-11-29T22:32:00.000-05:00

Yes, Jay Brannan is my crush...and no I'm not too old to have a crush! Check him out and I dare you not to crush on this really amazing guy!

Re: Say It's Possible

2007-11-29T22:27:00.000-05:00

Loneliest Stars (Summer Storm movie video)

2007-11-29T22:16:00.000-05:00

Amy Winehouse -You Know I'm No Good

2007-11-29T22:00:00.000-05:00

Botox me Over

2007-11-28T22:02:00.000-05:00

Now before you judge let me say this: NO REGRETS!

For years now when I woke up the guy staring back at me in the mirror wasn't a familiar face. He was tired, worn and angry looking. On the inside, he was full of energy and high spirited. So when I met with my cosmetic surgeon I told her this. I wasn't looking to take 10 years off my face...I was looking for a fresh start. I got that and then some!

We talked about life experience and even though I had a chalk full of lessons learned, it were these lessons that sat on my face. The next day, around 5pm I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror...my old friend Frank was back and better than ever. It was a moment that seemed to healed the last couple of years. The guy staring back was still 30 years old but he was refreshed and this is what made me smile.

For those of you out there who are thinking about Botox I have this advice for you all:

1) Think about it...why do you want it? If you're 30 and want to look 18 it's not going to happen. Don't run from age...but you can kick the signs of age in the nuts!

2) Do your homework. Know what you're getting and find a doctor who will answer your questions. Again, I love my doctor. She and I sat down and talked. I told her that I didn't want to look 'frozen' (I actually still have movement in my forehead). I wanted to look rested and refreshed.

3) Know that Botox is not permanent but with time it will prevent further damage.

4) Do it...you'll love it! No need to get carried away but a little does go a long way!

Rectal Confessions -- Taken from http://www.myspace.com/phunkybrat

2007-11-28T09:41:00.000-05:00

25 Nov 2007

Going out on a bad date can feel like gas. The annoyance of his voice churns a moarnful fit of rage but I try to sit and remain calm. 'Is it me?' I wonder over my steaming cup of grande bold, 'have I lost the patience to meet someone new?' as I gently rubbed my temples. Yes self-doubt at 30 years old does require the occasional tweeking. 'It's not my fault' I tell myself on my way to the subway after I recieved probably one of the most toothy kisses of my life, 'It's him' but deep down I don't believe in what I'm saying.

In the grand scheme called dating as a gay man, pit falls such as this one triggers the notion that happy endings are meant for fictional stories. Is this a pessimisstic indignation or have I read one too many love stories?

A friend, myself or my mother will encourage the optimissism that the love I require takes more work than a few strokes on a keyboard. But sometimes, it feels like there's a greater chance of surviving a hurricane in a tube-top than to find the right guy for me.
So this pity party for one observes a reaction of thought; perhaps it's an attitude adjustment that I require or at the very least I will not meet guys online after a half bottle of wine.

I'm Sorry

2007-11-28T07:44:00.001-05:00

Queer Fear - Gay Life, Gay Death in Iraq

2007-11-27T23:06:00.001-05:00

Short documentary alerts the viewer to systematic harassment and murder of gays, lesbians, bisexual and transgender people in Iraq

Meat

2007-11-27T22:41:00.001-05:00

Dir. Slava Ross / Russia / 2002
Times are hard for single mothers. But there are things young boys don't want to know. A tremendously touching drama about growing up in 20th century Russia.

Screentest Joseph Gordon-Levitt - NYTimes.com/TMagazine

2007-11-27T22:29:00.000-05:00

A real actor...a sexy actor...a real man...WOW

Jesus made Me do it!

2007-11-27T22:03:00.000-05:00

I have writer's block but it feels more like constipation. A block deep in the pit of my stomach...something needs to come out. Holy Hell it needs to come out.

Each word that sits in my head grinds against the walls of my skull. Slowly they reveal themselves but it's few...like a rabbit pellet. What I need right now is a medimusal for the brain.

This is what writer's block feels like...a log caught in a river's bend, preventing movement...annoyingly painful.

There is a surge of optimism though...like life eventually my head will the get fist fuck it needs and everything will be ok.

Trevor Hailey Interview - Part 3 - GLBT Historical Society

2007-11-27T21:55:00.000-05:00

Delilah's Burlesque Show Reel

2007-11-27T21:53:00.000-05:00

STRAIGHT BIGOTS VS GAY DEMO 1971-72 PRT #1

2007-11-27T21:42:00.000-05:00

Boys Life 5

2007-11-27T21:35:00.001-05:00

Guys Gond Wild

2007-11-26T22:30:00.002-05:00